Unions 8

To all of my brothers and sisters out there.....  We need your help.  The UAW has several contracts coming up this year as well as next.  Now, I don't know how much money CAF makes but I do know at the local Ford plant in Louisville is $38 an hour.  They just had over 500 people get an almost $20 a hour raise.  The reason I'm typing this is because my wife stumbled upon a Go Fund Me Page for the UAW.  Here is the bitch.  My wife is an UAW member.  She works for a vender of Ford, not at the plant so she doesn't make any where near $38 a hour.  The people at the plant can bring home $7800 a year in a profit sharing check and cry about that.  My wife is lucky if she brings home $400.

All that said; last year the UAW raised union dues by 25% in order to make a stronger strike fund.  Now, I have failed to mention that my beautiful wife pays into this "strike fund" but she has a no strike clause.  So, she'll never get any benefit from it.  Furthermore, when they voted to increase union dues they did it not with union members but 1100 delegates at there national convention.  They did this by Yeas and Nays.  When they couldn't tell the difference then they had a good old fashion hand raising.  I want to know who counted all those hands and how does one make sure the there isn't anyone holding up two hands????

But I digress, My point is our brothers and sisters in the union need our help.  Please, Please, Please go find the Go Fund Me page and at least give your next months rent so these people don't have to live in poverty.  For the one time cost of $1400-$1500 dollars you can ensure that these people can lay on their ass and still pay their bills.

FireWorks!!!

This is part of a letter from John Adams to his wife Abigail.  It was written on the third of July 1776.  I wish I could put up the whole letter but then people would not read it.  This is a must read!!! Remember why.....


But the Day is past. The Second Day of July 1776 [the day Congress voted for independence], will be the most memorable Epocha, in the History of America.-I am apt to believe that it will be celebrated, by succeeding Generations, as the great anniversary Festival. It ought to be commemorated, as the Day of Deliverance by solemn Acts of Devotion to God Almighty. It ought to be solemnized with Pomp and Parade, with Shews, Games, Sports, Guns, Bells, Bonfires and Illuminations from one End of this Continent to the other from this Time forward forever more.

You will think me transported with Enthusiasm but I am not-I am well aware of the Toil and Blood and Treasure, that it will cost Us to maintain this Declaration, and support and defend these States.-Yet through all the Gloom I can see the Rays of ravishing Light and Glory. I can see that the End is more than worth all the Means. And that Posterity will tryumph in that Days Transaction, even altho We should rue it, which I trust in God We shall not.

-a government big enough to give you everything that you want is big enough to take everything you have.    -Thomas Jefferson

The "N" Word Yet Again!!!

This isn't the first time I have blogged about the "N" word.  Ohhhhh...  WTF People?  I mean the POTUS can say Nigger, any black dude or chick can say Nigger but I can't?  The first time I hit this was about the cop in Denver that just Replied to some guy that called him a nigger, the cop simply replied, "I'm not your nigger".  Needless to the cop got reprimanded.

Point is I'm tried of trying to be "PC" when everyone including Rap, Hip Hop, Sports Stars, and even news anchors, hell the President can even use the word Nigger Now!!!!  So if my Commander in Chief can use it, so can I.

On that note, What's up Niggers????

MSNBC

MSNBC, More Shit No' Bama Circumvents....
I was flipping though the channels yesterday and came across MSNBC. They were showing a "caught on camera " episode, that I believe was titled WAR.  There are two individuals that I would like to point out.  First, because of rank is a LTC Shaffer and one SPC Mc Cord.  These are two real Shit Bags!!!!

Contrary to popular belief I do not get my news from one source. Everything I blog about has been vetted.  And vetted some more.  My problem with these two are what they were saying.  I am sorry to say they were part of the US Army.  More Shit No' Bama Circumvents was showing video of an Apache attack in Iraq.  These two fucks, Yes Sir I just called you a Fuck, because that's what you are!!!  They are on tape stating that WE WERE WRONG IN KILLING some Fucking mUSLIMS bastards that had AK's and a RPG for Fucks Sake.....  It was an over KILL!!!!  Really when the Fuck is War over KILL????  When?  So when this Apache gets done firing these Fucks up with a 30mm cannon and van pulls up to evac the wounded/weapons and the Attack chopper opens up on the van.

This dumb fucking Spec 4's unit pulls up to the site and sees that there were kids in the van.  One dead two alive.  This Spec 4 (Spc. Mc Cord) then goes on to state on camera that his squad leader told him to leave the kids and get on the perimeter.  I don't know, there was no audio but I do know that when you hit a combat site and your job is to secure the perimeter, YOU SECURE THE PERIMETER.  You secure it or people die.  Your Battle Buddy Dies!!!!!  Fuck the kids, Fuck the women and do your job.  Tend to the children after everyone is safe and the site is secure you STUPID FUCKING SPEC 4!!!!  That's why there is a SGT above you, and a SSG above him an so on.....

Then this Light Colonel gets on camera and states that the Apache attack on the van was unwarranted.  Really?  The Fucker just pulled up to a combat site with live action and a God Damn Apache laying down the law in a van with children in it.  How in the hell are those pilots going to know who is in that van?  Again it just pulled up to a site with known, armed combatives.

Bottom line, People die in War.  War can not be fought fair.  There is no such thing as a fair fight.  If there was, there wouldn't be any WINNERS!!!  Let our Troops fight.  Fighting is Killing.  Killing means people die.  Killing means little kids die.  Killing means women die.  I wouldn't trade 1000 little Iraqi or Afghan kids for one life of an American Soldier!!!!

It's shit like MSNBC is pulling that turn the American public against the Soldiers of Vietnam.  It's shit like this that turns ROE (rules of engagement) to a point that you can not fight a war.  It's shit like this that makes are streets violent because Cops are afraid to do their job!!!

Headlights

OK, so it's 0630 and I'm in my POV heading to the VA.  About five minutes into the drive and the skies open up.  Not a drizzle but a good down pour, countless cars on the road with no FREAKING lights.  No Freaking Lights, remember now it's 0630, that's 630am for all you civilian REMF's out there.  It's dark, overcast, the sun really not up yet, so you can't see shit anyway, add in the rain and the fact that people are stupid and you might as well walk outside and take a ten pound sledge to your vehicle.  Think about it, you'll save time, possible injury, and I don't have to see how Fucking Stupid you are.  It's a win, win!!

It's not hard people, reach over with your little hand and turn the switch.  It doesn't cost you any more fuel to turn your lights on.  People inherently drive like idiots, causing thousands of accidents a day.  Stupidity + Poor Road Conditions + Low Visibility = More

This weekend there was yet another shooting in Louisville, KY.  This time it wasn't black on black violence but a cop doing nothing but his job and defending himself.  All the local media and from what I can see on FB and other topic related pages, people are going ape shit over this cop.

This is on video.  The cop is responding to a call of a man beating a woman.  Cop pulls up along side of the street because he sees the suspect, he tries to question him to no avail, you can see the suspect walk out of view and the cop processed to follow, just then the suspect returns in view with a flag pole, advances toward the police officer and swings this pole at him.  The cop releases two rounds into the suspect and kills him.

Here's the problem, cops are not going to do their jobs if everyday they go to work they have to worry about being arrested.  Think about it, they already put their lives on the line and now they have to worry about going to jail for defending themselves.  You could not pay me to be a cop right now, and where's why.

I have heard or read things like, "well all flags poles are plastic, he didn't need to shoot him".  "You don't bring a gun to a pole fight".  "He should have escalated his response".  "He could have mace and tazzed him before he shot".  And that's just a few of the bullshit I've heard about this and it's just this one account!!!!  I mean it's like nobody cares about this poor cop.  Or, the city for that matter.  What's it cost to put this guy on paid admin leave until this gets settled?  And this cop has to live with the fact that he ended someone life for the rest of his, he'll never be the same.

I haven't even mention Darren Wilson who doesn't have a career anymore.  I haven't mention the six in Baltimore.  I haven't mention the cops from NYC.  This is all very recent.  WTF are you people going to do when the shit hits the fan?  Because when it does, it's going to be Cops and Soldiers that save your ass.

Think About That!!!

Veterans Suicide

Veteran suicide is very important to me, but it should be important to "Us".  The pic on the right represents the 22 who take their own lives everyday.  Below is a Vet turn Hip Hop artist, very good at what he does.  Check out his music and download what you like.  Support his cause for his cause is mine and should be all of ours.  These 22 fought so you could live in a free and Just society.  Now, it's our turn to fight for them just to live!!!

PTSD Awareness

June is PTSD Awareness month.  Posttraumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) is not an Iraq War problem and it is not an Afghan War problem.  PTSD has been around since the beginning of battle.  It has had many names, Battle Fatigue and Shell Shock to name a few.  God only know how many names it has carried over the years.

I think that's something we do as a society and especially in the Military.  We have to change the names of our problems so it looks like they went away and something new pops up.  In reality it's the same thing, we think it presents its' self in a different manner so we change the name.  The truth is, we are the ones that have changed not the disorder.  We started with sticks and stones, we have crucified people on the cross.  We now have machine guns and Nukes.  Bombs that scatter thousands of little bombs.

Even Audie Murphy suffered from PTSD.  We didn't call it that back then but it is documented.  Audie Murphy was our most decorated war hero.  He earned every medal of valor that the USA has and something like five more from different countries.  After the war he went on to be a movie star but he was still messed up.  This issue needs to be addressed.

PTSD is so very important to me because so very many of our Veterans suffer from this.  I truly believe it is the leading cause of the 22.  Twenty-two Vets take their own lives each and everyday.  That's 22 to many.  One can not blame PTSD for everything but if you compound that with loosing your job, maybe your wife leaving you, the dog dies, Hell I don't know play a country song and they're are a hundred different reasons to freak out.  You have to understand; most, if not all of the Vets out there have seen Death and Destruction.

So Please, take a moment and copy, paste, and share this ribbon.

Racism

I am so sick of this shit!!!!  People come across something on MSNBC, FB, or any place on the internet and take it as gospel.  Hell I could produce that article in ten minutes.  Is there racism in police dept's, sure.  I'm sure there are plenty of bad cops.  Just like there are bad doc's, bad attorney's, bad Fucking school bus drivers.  Fact is WE ARE ALL prejudice.  Doesn't have to be against Blacks, Mexican, Jews, or mUSLIMS.  It could be you're a heavy set girl in the checkout line and "Daddy's little princess" is in front of you, you turn to your GF and say look at her she's never paid for anything in her life.  She will float on Daddy's shirt tails until she gets married to a rich man.  Could be me as a young Pvt looking a the hot chick knowing she never even give me a second look, only because I didn't have bars on my shoulders.  Don't for get about the homeless vet on the sidewalk that people look down on every day no matter what the color of their skin is, white, black, red, tan, or yellow, it's all disgusting for people that are "above" them.

 

But what really pisses me off about this whole Racist Cop thing is we have nothing, but a bunch of White racist cops beating and killing the Black man.  Did we have slavery, absolutely.  Was it right, Fuck no.  But let us not forget that the White man didn't go to Africa and start rounding up slaves.

 

People think that "Blacks" (if that's PC, IDK anymore) were the only slaves.  Not true, there were many white slaves though out the years.  And furthermore, Black slaves came to this Country from their own hand.  Yes I said it again, the bigger stronger Black tribes in Africa raped and pillaged the weaker tribes.  They rape the women killed some of the men then tied them up and Marched them to the coast and SOLD them to the White man.   That's just a FACT. and it's still going on today.  If you don't believe me just Google your first lady with the #freeourgirls!!!

 

There was a FB post the other day that just tripped my trigger.  I refused to respond to it but now I have to do so.  It was about the difference the way the Waco police treated those involved in the Biker Battle as apposed to those in Baltimore.  Let me tell you the difference, the difference is in Waco there was 170-190 mostly Whites arrested.  In Baltimore they said let them loot!!!!  Let them loot and stand down!!!  It's only property and now the city is asking you the tax payer to pay for it and they will get it!!!!  It's only Chinese money that our great grandchildren will have to pay for.

 

As Always you can send your hate mail to dsgajewski@gmail.com

Unions 7

Not my Job, ever hear that?  Unfortunately in Todays world we hear it all to often, but not half as much like it's thrown around in a union shop.  Specifically, the UAW.  UAW has to be my favorite union.  These people are on point.  I have had the pleasure of knowing some of these people for the last twenty years.  However, I would like to point out some of the more recent bullshit that this union and it's members are doing.

First and foremost, where's the Solidarity?  Solidarity is the Fucking UAW's motto.  Hell, it's the name of their magazine!  I live just south of Louisville, KY which host a nice big Ford plant.  They build trucks there and get parts from all over to assemble there.  Thirty minutes away is another UAW Unionized plant that provides parts for the Ford plant.  Same union, two different plants.  Both plants are assembly, they make some shit there but not like every nut and bolt, they both get parts from all over and in the end there is a F-150 at the dealership.

Here's the issue, I know this guy that works at the second plant and here's the difference.  About $15.00 on the hour!  Where's the Solidarity UAW?  What about profit sharing checks that are $400.00 a year compared to $7000.00 a year.  Where's the Solidarity UAW?  One plant gets short week pay the other does not.  Where's the Solidarity UAW?  If that main plant shut down due to the Derby or a U of L football game or the Final Four the other plants don't work and they don't have short week pay.  Where's the Solidarity UAW?  How is that protecting your workers?  Your members pay you for your protection, where is it?  You just increased their dues by 25% yes a 25% increase in dues in order to increase the Strike fund but this other plant has a no strike clause that you (THE UAW) put in the contract!!!  So this June or July when the main plant strikes, you know because they have benefits, it will shut down the others and the others don't have the bene's.  Where's the Solidarity UAW?  How can one union, different locals but the same union, have a cost of living bonus in one plant yet another plant a half mile away doesn't?  Where's the solidarity UAW?

Here's the kicker with Solidarity, this guy I know works for the "other" plant but still has been a UAW member for three years.  And BTW not making the 39 bucks an hours that the UAW boast of average wages.  Ok, more like the mid teens!!  Also up until last June the UAW collected dues that a portion of which went to produce and publish and automatically mail to it's members the "Solidarity" magazine. He has never received a copy, nor to my knowledge anyone that he works with.  Where's the money going?  If you dig you can find it.

I don't get to read most of this stuff on the message board that he is part of, but from what I hear is a bunch of babies crying about having to work a Sunday once every three months or so....  Now let's go back a little and say 40 bucks at time and a half = 60 bucks.  If it's a Sunday or holiday then it's dbl time which is 80 bucks plus your holiday pay, makes it 120 dollars an hour and people are complaining about it.  When it's all said and done that new truck cost you forty grand, you now know why!!!  But seriously, this guy has been to both plants and it's the same, piles of dirt at the end of the shift, nobody stocking for the next guy, shit like well the computer screen says that's not in the sequence to do my job therefore I don't have to do it.

Again, Bottom line is Unions Suck!  They don't do a thing but make American jobs go south or over seas.  That's just a FACT.  The Jobs that they do have here increase the cost of everything that you buy, and for what reason?  So, some Fat Bastard can make a couple of hundred grand a year off of your sweat?  So he can spend 40 million of YOUR hard earned dollars in ONE WEEKEND???  Wake The Fuck Up People!!!!

Your Tax Dollars At Work!!!

Just when you think we as a society could not getting any more STUPID, something like this pops up.  This pic is not photo shopped. it was taken on I-65 north bound just past the on ramp of Exit 112.  In the Great Bluegrass State BTW.  These two signs both read the exact same thing, "Speed Limit 70".  They are also Fifteen Fucking Feet Apart!!!

Now I don't know what it cost to produce, install, and maintain a road sign, but even if it was free surely we don't need two of them fifteen feet apart.  At best we have a roadside distraction with people traveling at speeds greater than 70, I mean let's not kid ourselves.  I mean you see the one sign look down at your speedometer and say to yourself "I'm good" then as you get closer BAMM there's another.  So you know it's gonna take your eyes off the road, try to turn your neck around, thinking to yourself WTF did that say???  Maybe look at your passenger, "Hey, did you see that"?

However, what it looks like to me is a bunch of unionized government workers trying to justify their jobs.  Or they're to Fucking sorry to look at their boss and say, "WTF man, there is a sign right there".  My experience is they probably said Fuck it, it's a union gig and we get paid to put up a sign.

People this is not a KY problem.  This is a Federal Hwy with Federal Tax Dollars at work.  So the next time you hear your politician say we need to raise the gas tax.  Our roads and bridges and tunnels are falling apart.  Or you local city and county crying about land taxes that the winter was so bad and we had to use to much salt.   You just might want to give them a call.  You just might want to tell them to spend the money they have a little bit more wisely.  Just Sayin, I mean it's your cash!!!

A Time To Remember...

I wasn't going to blog Today, I was just going to let somber be somber.  However, I came across a list that one of my FB friends posted and it really hit home with me.

You see people remember the Revolutionary War, Civil, the Dough Boys, the Greatest Generation, starting to remember the Forgotten Ones of Korea, the Ones that were Spit on from Vietnam but so many are forgotten.  Below is a list of my brothers and sisters that didn't make it back from Desert Shield/Desert Storm.  Remember these brave souls Today, for today is about them as well as all of the fallen.  This list doesn't include the thousands that have died from Gulf War Illness nor the countless numbers of Veterans that took their own lives due to PTSD.  If I have missed anyone, I deeply apologize.

Victor Theodore Lake, Jr., Corporal, USMC      Timothy William Romei, Corporal, USMC
Rueben Gideon Kirk, PFC, US Army          Robert Lawrence Daugherty Jr., PFC, US Army
Robert Joseph Hughs, CW3, US Army         Michael Neal Monroe, 1LT, USMC
Lance Milo Monsen, SSGT, USMC           Jeffery William Speicher, PFC, US Army
Jeffery David Reel, SPC, US Army           James David Tatum, SPC, US Army
Ira Lynn Foreman, SGT, US Army                Charles Scott Walker, PFC, US Army
David Mark Wieczorek, PFC, US Army            Gary Scott Dillan, CPT, USMC
Earnest Frank Mitchem, Jr., SFC, US Army          Wade Elliott Hector, SPC, US Army
John Doege West, SMN, US Navy             David Gordon Plasch, W01, US Army
Scotty Lynn Whittenburg, SGT, Us Army           Michael Leo Chinburg, CPT, USAF
Roderick Ternail Stewart, SMN, US Navy            Mark David Jackson, LT, US Navy
Donnie Ray Holland, LTC, USAF            Peter Lawrence Swano, Jr., SPC, US Army
Adrian Leonard Stokes, PFC, US Army           Russell Griffin Smith, Jr., SFC, US Army
Mark John Schmauss, SSGT, US Air Force           George Scott Finneral, PO 3rd Class, US Navy
Thomas Ray Adams, Jr., PFC, USMC             Daniel Mooers Jones, PO 3rd Class, US Navy
Willam Aaron Holt, PO 3rd Class, US Navy          John Robert Kilkus, SSGT, USMC
Melford Ray Collins, PFC, US Army            Paul Lawrence Burt, SGT, US Army
Roger Edward Valentine, PFC, US Army        Jeffery Edward Mullin, SGT, US Army
David Rohrer Herr, Jr., CPT USMC             Thomas Joseph Haggerty, 1LT, US Army
Patrick Anthony Donaldson, CW2, US Army          Alan Randy Auger, LCPL, USMC
Christopher Hoyt Stephens, SSG, US Army         Tommie William Bates, CPT, US Army
Luis Roberto Delgato, SGT, US Army              Richard Ruffin Lee, CW3, US Army
Aurthur Oscar Garza, LCPL, USMC              John Clinton Fowler, SPC, US Army
Gary Wayne Mahan, SCP, US Army              James Henry Sylvia, Jr., CPL, USMC
Candelario Montalvo, Jr., SGT, USMC        Steven A. Budzian, SMN Apprentice, US Navy
Andy Alaniz, SPC, US Army              Cindy Marie Beaudoin, SPC, US Army
David Allen Douthit, LTC, US Army          Todd Christopher Ritch, PVT, US Army
Tommy Don Butler, SPC, US Army             William Thomas Butts, SFC, US Army
Douglas Lloyd Bradt, CPT, USAF         John Mather Snyder, LT, US Navy
Corey Lee Winkle, PFC, US Army         David Robert Ames, SST, US Army
James Dale Hawthorne, SGT, USMC          Scott Nolie Vigrass, PFC, US Army
Barry Thomas Cooke, LTC, US Navy         Troy Lorenzo Gregory, LCPL, USMC
Hector Carranza, Jr., LTC, US Army           Manuel Rivera, Jr., CPT, USMC
James Clarence Murray, Jr., SPC, US Army       Kerry Peter Hein, CW2, US Army
Daniel B. Walker, LCPL, USMC       Robert Lee Durrell, SGT, US Army
Scott Alan Rush, PFC, US Army          Thomas Gerald Stone, SPC, US Army
Thomas Robert Tormanen, LCPL, USMC          Eugene Thomas McCarthy, MJR, USMC
Daniel Dean Joel, CPL, USMC              Thomas Stewart Larson, LT, US Navy
Charles John Turner, LT, US Navy         Otto Frank Clark, MSG, US Army
Stephen Eric Bentzlin, CPL, USMC     Patbouvier Enrique Ortiz, SSG, US Army
Glen Dean Jones, SPC, US Army          Robert Kevin Hodges, TSGT, USAF
Timothy Roger Harrison, SSGT, USAF            Delwin Delgato, PO 3rd Class, US Navy
Ronald David Rennison, SPC, US Army        James Frederick Crockford, PO 3rd Class, US Navy
Steven Douglas Clark, SPC, US Army            Brian Paul Weaver, PO 2nd Class, US Navy
Jeffery Warren Shukers, CPO, US Navy        Kathleen Marie Sherry, 2LT, US Army
Michael Ward Mills, SPC, US Army         Robert Lee Volden, PO 1st Class, US Navy
Patrick Robert Hurley, SGM, US Army         Dale William Jock, SMN Apprentice, US Navy
Patrick Kelly Connor, LT, US Navy             John Perry Blessinger, SSGT, USAF
Steven Glen Mason, SPC, US Army             Mario Fajardo, CPT, US Army
Gerard Anthony Cohen, PFC, US Army        Harold Paul Witzke III, SFC, US Army
Steven Paul Farnen, SPC, US Army        Anthony Dashawn Stewart, LCPL, USMC
David Lawrence Hayman, SPC, US Army         David Timothy Snyder, LCPL, USMC
Phillip Dean Mobley, SPC, US Army         John Joseph Curtin, CW3, US Army
Alexander Jones, SMN Apprentice, US Navy          Tatiana Dees, SSG, US Army
Steven Robert Trautman, SPC, US Army        Edward Michael Codispodo, LCPL, USMC
William Thompson Costen, LT, US Navy         Luis A Henry-Garay, SGT, US Army
Jeffery Thomas Middleton, SGT, US Army        Mark Allen Connelly, MJR, US Army
George Richard Swartzendruber, CW2, US Army         Joe Murphy, SFC, US Army
Hans Christian Richard Avey, PFC, US Army          Thomas James Scholand, LCPL, USMC
Nels Andrew Moller, SGT, US Army           Ismael Cotto, CPL, USMC
Mark Richard Cronquist, SPC, US Army       Lorraine Kerstin Lawton, 2LT, US Army
Earl K. Stribling, MJR, US Army                 Gilbert A. Fontaine, SMN, US Navy
Manuel Michael Davila, SPC, US Army          Thomas Eugene Walrath, SPC, US Army
Young Min Dillon, SGT, US Army         Tyrone Roneya Bowers, SPC, US Army
Michael Louis Belliveau, PO 3rd Class, US Navy           Carlos Alberto Viquez, LTC, US Army
David Allan Gilliland, PO 3rd Class, US Navy           John Bradley Stephens, SPC, US Army
Manuel Bernardo Sapien, Jr., SPC, US Army          Garett Adam Mongrella, SGT, USMC
Ardon Bradley Cooper, PFC, US Army                Robert Curtis Wade, PFC, US Army
Paul Jennings Weaver, MJR, USAF           Leonard Allen Russ, SSG, US Army
Gary Eugene Streeter, SFC, US Army          Pamela Yvette Gay, PFC, US Army
Dorothy Lee Fails, PVT, US Army           Marie Therese Rossi, MJR, US Army
Dale Thomas Cormier, CPT, USAF         Robert D. Talley, CPT, USAF
Jeffery Allan Rollins, SST, US Army          David Walter Kramer, PFC, US Army
George Nassif Malak, W01, US Army          Dustin Craig Lamoureux, PFC, US Army
Anthony Erik Madison, SPC, US Army          Joshua John Fleming, PFC, US Army
Michael Richard Butch, PO 2nd Class, US Navy         John Kendall Morgan, W01, US Army
Frank James Walls, SPC, US Army       James Eric Waldron, LCPL, USMC
Michael Eugene Linderman, Jr., LCPL, USMC        Richard Vincent Wolverton, SPC, US Army
Eric Douglas Hedeen, 1LT, USAF       John Thomas Boxler, SGT, US Army
Lee Arthur Belas, SGT, US Army       Monray Corzere Carrington, SMN, US Navy
Matthew James Scheidler, PO 3rd Class, US Navy             Alan Brent Craver, SGT, US Army
Shawnacee Loren Noble, PFC, US Army         Steven Eric Atherton, CPL, US Army
Michael Craig Dailey, Jr., PFC, US Army         John Howard Gillespie, MJR, US Army
Troy Michael Wedgwood, SPC, US Army         Thomas Joseph Moran, SSGT, USMC
Ronaldo Adolfo Delagneau, SPC, US Army        Frederick Arthur Reid, CPT, USAF
Michael Ray Conner, Sr., SSGT, USMC          Daniel Lupatsky, PO 2nd Class, US Navy
John Francis Campisi, SSGT, USAF           John August Boliver, Jr., SPC, US Army
Peter Samuel Hook, MJR, USAF          Stephen Julius Siko, SPC, US Army
James Michael Lang, LCPL, USMC          Michael Craig Wallington, LTC, US Army
Marty Revohn Davis, PFC, US Army        Duane Writner Hollen, Jr., SPC, US Army
Adrienne Lynette Mitchell, PVT, US Army          Jorge Isaac Arteaga, CPT, USAF
Christopher Andre Martin, W01, US Army         Jeffrey John Bnosky, CPT, US Army
Arthur Galvan, CPT, USAF        Edwin Brian Kutz, SGT, US Army
Dale Leonard Paulson, PFC, US Army          Daniel Clayton McKinsey, SMN Apprentice, US Navy
James Bernard Poulet, CPT, USAF           Christine Lynn Mayes, SPC, US Army
Norman Ray Rainwater, Jr., SPC, US Army          Michael Sean Smith, SPC, US Army
Thomas Michael Diffenbaugh, W01, USMC          Beverly Sue Clark, SPC, US Army
Kip Anderson Poremba, LCPL, USMC             William Carl Brace, SPC, US Army
Dion James Stephenson, LCPL, USMC         Jospeh Phillip Bongiorni III, SGT, US Army
Joseph Dillon Maks, 1LT, US Army          Michael Dennis Cooke, CPL, USMC
David Ray Crumby, Jr., SGT, US Army         Donald Thomas Murphy, Jr., SFC, US Army
David Lloyd Tapely, SFC, US Army           Frank Scott Keough, SPC, US Army
Adam Todd Hoage, PFC, USMC            William David Grimm, CPT, USAF
Shannon Patrick Kelley, 2LT, US Army           Ronald Milton Randazzo, SGT, US Army
Jimmy Dewayne Haws, SSG, US Army             Charles Leroy Bowman, Jr., SPC, US Army
Paul Richard Eichenlaub II, CPT, USAF          Joseph Gordon Kime III, CPT, US Army
Thomas Allen Jenkins, LCPL, USMC           Garland Vance Hailey, SSG, US Army
J Scott Lindsey, SGT, US Army            Raymond Elijah Hatcher, Jr., SSG, US Army
Leroy Emil Hein, Jr., SGT, USAF         Thomas Clifford Bland, Jr., CPT, USAF
Anthony Troy Patterson, PVT, US Army             William Troy Long, MJR, US Army
Damon Valentine Keaw Kanuha, SSGT, USAF          James Robert McCoy, Sgt, US Army
David Quentin Douthit, SSG, US Army          Michael Nunnally Manns, Jr., SMN, US Navy
Michael David Daniels, SPC, US Army           Terry Lawrence Plunk, 1LT, US Army
Frank Choai Allen, LCPL, USMC           Robert John Dwyer, LT, US Navy
Raymond Louis Horwath, Jr., CPL, USMC           Donald Wayne Morgan, SSG, US Army
Phillip L. Wilkinson, PO 2nd Class, US Navy         Jason Charles Carr, SGT, US Army
Wilton L. Huyghue, SMN, US Navy         Timothy Allen Shaw, PFC, US Army
Mario Vega-Velazquez, SSG, US Army        Kenneth Blane Gentry, SSG, US Army
Adrian Jay Hart, SPC, US Army          Jonathon Mathew Williams, CPL, US Army
Randy Lee Neel, SMN Apprentice, US Navy            Dixon Lee Walters, Jr., CPT, USAF
Roy Tydingo Damian, Jr., SPC, US Army            Archimedes Panabe Sanjuan, LCPL, USMC
James Wilcher, SGT, US Army            Thomas C. M. Zeugner, MJR, US Army
Donald Preston Tillar III, 1LT, US Army           Candace Moriah Daniel, PFC, US Army
Jospeh Douglas Daugherty III, LCPL, USMC         Mark Edward Hutchison, PO 2nd Class, US Navy
Albert George Haddad, Jr., CPL, USMC          Kenneth Jerome Jackson, PFC, US Army
Brian Keith Simpson, SPC, US Army          Christopher Jones Chapman, SSG, US Army
James Bernard Cunningham, LCPL, USMC               Melvin Dennis McDougle, SGT, US Army
Michael A. Noline, PFC, USMC             Michael Anthony Harris, Jr., SSG, US Army
Eliseo Celestino Felix, LCPL, USMC             Phillip Jesse Thomas, PO 2nd Class, US Navy
Aaron Alan Pack, SGT, USMC          Bobby Lewis McKnight, SPC, US Army
Kenneth James Perry, SPC, US Army           Fred Russel Parker, Jr., PO 2nd Class, US Navy
Bobby Maurice Ware, SPC, US Army           Tommy Angelo Blue, SGT, US Army
Jerry Leon King, PFC, US Army           Patrick Brian Olson, CPT, USAF
Ernest Rivers, SGT, USMC           James Melvin Smith, Jr., SSG, US Army
James Earl Worthy, SPC, US Army             Arthur Dwayne Oliver, LCPL, USMC
Robert Gary Godfrey, CW3, US Army          Donald Ray Bates, SSG, US Army
Phillip John Jones, CPL, USMC           Timothy Bernard Seay, PO 3rd Class, US Navy
Christopher Bernard Brown, SMN Apprentice, US Navy       Larry Marcellous Clark, SMN, US Navy
Tracey Darlen Brogdon, SGT, US Army           Eloy Angel Rodriguez, Jr., MSG, US Army
Nathanial Henry Kemp, SMN Apprentice, US Navy          Dodge Randel Powell, SGT, US Army
Shirley Marie Cross, PO 1st Class, US Navy           Stephen Ray Robinette, SSG, US Army
Roy Junior Summerall, SSG, US Army            Phillip H. Garvey, CW4, US Army
John Lee Oelschlager, TSGT, USAF            Michael Robert Robson, SSG, US Army
Henry Junior Sanders, 1SG, US Army           Hal Hooper Reichle, CW2, US Army
Donald Danielson, SGT, US Army            Jonathon Hall Kamm, SSG, US Army
Robert Allan Noonan, SPC, US Army            Anthony Wayne Kidd, SPC, US Army
David Michael Spellacy, CPT, USMC           Tony Ray Applegate, SSG, US Army
Ross Alan Dierking, SGT, US Army           Thomas Robert Caldwell, CPT, USAF
James Henry Lumpkins, LCPL, USMC           Clarence Allen Cash, SPC, US Army
Dennis William Betz, SGT, USMC             Mark Joseph Gologram, SGT, US Army
Jeffry Jon Olson, CPT, USAF              Jonathon Ross Edwards, CPT, USMC
Kevin Ray Dolvin, CPT, USMC           Anthony Javanne Fleming, PO 3rd Class, US Navy
James Robert Brown, SPC, US Army            Brian Lee Lane, LCPL, USMC
Alan Harden Benningfield, PO 2nd Class, US Navy           Otha Bennet Squires, Jr., SPC, US Army
Mark Allen Miller, PFC, US Army               Jeffrey A Settimi, SMN Apprentice, US Navy
James Robert Miller, Jr., SPC, US Army           John Michael Paddock, CW4, US Navy
Jorge Luis Guerro, SMN, US Navy           Kevin John Hills, SMN Apprentice, US Navy
James Paul Heyden, SPC, US Army           William Joseph Hurley, CPT, USMC
William David Cronin, Jr., CPT, USMC           Stephen Richard Phillis, CPT, USAF
Thomas Flagg Koritz, MJR, USAF            Charles William Cooper, CPT, US Army
Gary Wayne Crask, SPC, US Army         Scott Francis Bianco, CPL, USMC
Michael Fredrick Anderson, CW3, US Army              Stanley Walter Bartusiak, SPC, US Army
Christian Jay Porter, LCPL, USMC           Kenneth Thomas Keller, Jr., SGT, USMC
Darrell Kenneth Brown, SMN Apprentice, US Navy        David Clarence Hollenbeck, SPC, US Army
Marvin Jerome Plummer, PO 2nd Class, US Navy          Craig Eugene Valentine, LTJG, US Navy
Steven Mark Hansen, SSG, US Army            William Fitzgerald Palmer, SPC, US Army
Roger Paul Brilinski, Jr., SGT, US Army           Aaron Winship Howard, PFC, US Army
Kelly D. Phillips, SGT, US Army           Tyrone Michael Brooks, SMN Recruit, US Navy
Kelly Lynn Matthews, SGT, US Army           David Alan Shaw, SSGT, USMC
Timothy Eugene Hill, SPC, US Army           Kurt Allen Benz, CPL, USMC
Scott Arthur Schroeder, LCPL, USMC          Cheryl Lorraine Obrien, SGT, US Army
Rocky John Nelson, AFC, USAF             Carl Wesley Zabel, SPC, US Army
Michael Lloyd Fitz, PVT, US Army            Kevin Lee Calloway, PFC, US Army
William Allen Strehlow, SGT, US Army         Paul Garfield Buege, SMSG, USAF
Brian Patrick Scott, SGT, US Army            Patrick Anthony Wanke, PFC, US Army
Kevin Edward Wright, SGT, US Army            Lawrence Norman Welch, SGT, US Army
Donald Ray Myers, SPC, US Army            Brent Allen McCreight, SMN, US Navy
Ricky Lee Bunch, SSG, US Army            James Kevin Thorp, CPT, USMC
Reginald Courtney Underwood, CPT, USMC           Joe Henry Hancock, Jr., LTC, US Army
James Arthur Smith, Jr., PO 3rd Class, US Navy             James Blain May II, SMSG, USAF
Bernard Sean Winkley, CW2, USMC           Daniel Eugene Graybeal, CPT, US Army
Jimmy Wesley James, SPC, US Army             Russel Frank Awalt, SFC, US Army
Douglas Lance Fielder, SGT, US Army            Cindy Deanna Jane Bridges, PFC, US Army
Barry Keith Henderson, MJR, USAF            Timothy Jerome Jackson, PO 3rd Class, US Navy
Thomas Randall Jarrell, SPC, US Army           Ramono Levias Poole, SRAM, USAF
James Newton Wilbourn III, CPT, USMC           John Wesley Hutto, PFC, US Army
Larry Gene Hogan, SGT, USMC          Baldwin Lovell Satchel, SSG, US Army
Arthur Jackson, SSG, US Army          Barry Maxwell Clark, SGT, USAF
Stephen Gerald Schramm, LTC, USAF           Mike Allan Garrett, SSG, US Army
Michael Ray Allen, SSG, US Army            Randal Craig Mills, SSG, US Army
Tracy Hampton, SGT, US Army               Ron Randall Holyfield, PO 3rd Class, US Navy

Memorial Day!!!

Memorial Day, is tomorrow, the 25th of May 2015.  It's has become the "unofficial" start of summer, which means BBQ's. parties, pool openings, and sales.  It hurts my heart to see this see this most sacred day turned into a day off work or day to catch up on chores that you have been putting off.  Don't get me wrong, I do think the day should be a celebration, it's just when you look around at your neighbors, your coworkers, or the clerk at your local grocery store, it seems everyone has forgotten the reason why it is a National Holiday.  This day was named to remember the Fallen.  All those Soldiers, Sailors, Airman, and Marines that did not COME HOME.  You should remember all of our brothers and sisters that are buried in France, the MIA's from Vietnam, the forgotten ones from Korea, the ones

that have died over the last 239 years so we could have the day off, or the fireworks, and the "holiday" pay.  This day is not about the Veterans nor the Active duty so don't thank them.  If you feel the need to say something, say "I'm glad you're home and I'll be thinking about your fallen brothers and sisters, Today, I'm going to celebrate their sacrifice".

I know at this point in my life I'm not going to die in combat, for that I am grateful and sadden at the same time.  Grateful that God has seen merciful enough to give me another day on this beautiful earth and sadden that my brothers are not here with us.  However, when he does call me home, don't be sad, there should be a celebration.  And that's what Memorial Day should be.  So go have your BBQ's and picnics, cut your grass, have a party and get lively, Just remember and send a toast or a salute to those that gave all so we have the FREEDOM to do so.


Below is a YouTube link of a boy giving his all to saulte the Soldiers that stormed Omaha Beach in 1944.  Please Watch, it's amazing!!!

https://youtu.be/8k9Si28k0Fk

Free College!!!

Free college?  Every Demoncrat on Capitol Hill, along with No' Bama in the White House is screaming for FREE COLLEGE.  Well, when are people going to realize that nothing in this life is FREE.  I hate that word FREE.  Would someone please show me something that is FREE.  Because when you try, I'll show you someone that had to pay it.  The only thing in this life that is FREE is God's grace and people I'm telling you that even God will make your sorry ass get up and tend the garden.

For a long time people were screaming, "Gotta have a HS diploma, Gotta have a HS diploma", I mean it was like chicken little!  There did that get us?  We have basketball/football players that can barely read and write but they graduate college with a degree.  We have students that get passed though grades just so the teacher won't have to deal them, "Better luck to the guy next year!!".  Bottom line is education starts at home.  If Mom and Dad aren't sitting down with their kids reading books to them and listen to their children read, then it will never work.  If the parents do not look at report cards, talk to their kids teacher, get involved in what's going on, then it will never work.

But let's get back to this FREE thing.  We have FREE college now. It's called join the Military.  Plain and simply, join the Army.  Don't like the Army, ok there are another three branches plus the Coast Guard out there.  After 9-11 the Dept. of Defense (DOD) change the GI Bill.  Now if you give them three years, you're covered 100% for your education .  A full four year degree, that covers tuition in any state school of your residence, $1000.00 a year for books and supplies, and housing to the max of an E-5's Basic Allowance for housing (BAH) in the area in which you live.  The BAH will come out to be $1000 to $1500 per month.  If you can't be a poor student striving to make a better life for yourself and live off that than you got a problem.

Some people say, but Dave not all people can be Soldiers?  And I agree with you, I've seen many of Shit Bags I would have kicked out.  But let's look at the civilian world.  UPS has tuition reimbursement.  Most of those guys work four hour shifts which would be perfect for a college student.  Beyond that Micky D's, BK, Taco Bell, etc... They have the same.  Wally World, gas stations, every corporation out there has some type of assistance.  Add all that with normal state and fed. aid and you can go to school. FACT, just FACT.  Now I'm not saying you can go to the bar and party every night but you can go to school.  So, some say Mommy and Daddy make to much money for aid and they can't/won't pay for me to go to school.

Let's look at that:

168 hrs in the week, Full time load is 12 hrs a week
-12
156 left, They say for every hour in the classroom, you have to do three outside to study/papers, etc..
-36
120 left, Let's give then eight hours of sleep a night
-56
 64 left, That's 64 hours a week to go to WORK, holy shit, did I just say WORK.  That's work play do whatever you can afford to do.  I don't care, I just don't want to pay for your Spring Break, Your Frat parties, your basting in beer weekends.  Do it yourself. It cam be done.

When are we going to get away from this FREE Shit??  Nothing is FREE, someone has to pay for it!!!

tHORNTONS 2

Ain't this a Bitch.  We got back from the Ruck March Saturday, Jo and I got cleaned up, ate, took a nap, etc...  Just after 2400 (midnight) I shoot an e-mail to tHORNTONS bitching about several dozen Vets getting kicked out of one of their stores.  No reply, BTW.

At some point yesterday Jo (along with several other Vets) sent one out.  Just before noon Today, Jo gets a call from tHORNTONS HR department, which lead absolutely no where.  However the guy did ask her to pass his name and number off to one of the Vets that actually heard the words  "Get the Fuck out".  My point is I'm still waiting on a reply.  So all I got to say to tHORNTONS is Lick my ass.  I'm not going to shut up and I'm going to tell everybody that I meet what a hunk of shit you people are!!!

#thorntonssucks  They'll be more to follow!

You Race Baiting Bastard!!!

sHARPTONS daughter, next to the Master Baiter
 

So sHARPTON's daughter "sprains" her ankle walking though the streets of NY City, because the streets/sidewalks were uneven.  She then waits several months to sue the City, for Five Million Dollars, I might add.  In the mean time this CBH (for those of you that do not know, that loosely interprets to Cunt, Bitch, Hoar) Instagrams herself climbing mountains, walking in high heels, etc, several times. 

This guy won't pay any of his back taxes, we as a society let him get away with it, because if anybody says anything at all, Holly Fuck, You're a Racist!!!!!! Blacks don't care because it's "screw the Man" and white are afraid to be labeled.  So what's gonna happen and mark my words.... The City of NY will settle with her and she will get paid because this stupid CUNT, BITCH, HOAR can't not look where she is walking.  Yep I said it AL, send your goons my way.  The City knows they can't fight it and they will settle.  Not to mention the Fat Fucking Cunt is to big to walk up MT, if you look close enough you can see the cranes in the background that it took to lift her gargantuan ass up there.  So, the city is Fucked, with means you are Fucked!!!

tHORNTONS, tHORNTONS, tHORNTONS

tHONTONS, will never get another one of my little red pennies again.  So we did the Active Heroes Ruck March on the 16th.  We are walking though downtown Louisville and we come to the corner of Broadway and First St, the Team Lead decides to stop and let everybody grab a snack, some fluids, use the latrine, etc...

Now, it's pissing down the rain outside and I can see that they don't want water all over their floor.  I mean it's a lot of hard work to pick up a mop and stick one of those, Caution, Wet Floor signs by the door.  I don't have the final numbers but I think we were 60+.  They told us Veterans to get what we need and get out. Yep, Get Out!  Several dozen Vet's marching to bring awareness to Veteran suicide got kicked out of tHORNTONS.

People you need to understand that 22, yes Twenty-Two, Vets die each and everyday by their own hand.  There is a FUCKING problem with that.  The only way to combat it is though awareness, therapy, and education.  Active Heroes has a 142 acrea stress free retreat that they are trying to get off the ground please visit their site at activeheroes.org

As far as you Fucks at tHORNTONS, well you can just lick my FUCKING ASS and make sure you get my taint.  I think I miss that sometimes with the TP.  You are some stupid MOTHER FUCKERS.  I'll never let this go.  I'll repost this on Twitter and FB every week until I die.  You Fucking ShitBags!!!

Ruck March 16 May 15

http://activeheroes.org/  22 Veterans commit suicide very day. That's twenty-two that die not from some Fucked Up disease they caught in a foreign land or some bad infection from the hospital. These Soldiers, Sailors, Airmen, and Marines decide to take their own lives.

Active Heroes is putting on a Ruck March this Saturday in order to bring awareness to this epidemic.  Please visit this link http://activeheroes.org/ to find out more about how you can participate or support their cause.

These Vets pick up a weapon and stood watch for you, Now they need your help!!!

mUSLIMS 3

You gotta read this....    https://themuslimissue.wordpress.com/2014/04/07/muslims-in-dearborn-michigan-complains-that-egg-hunt-is-offensive-to-muslims/

People I'm telling you, we gotta take back are Country. It's not just the mUSLIMS, it's all of this PC Bullshit!!!  Wake The Fuck Up.

Mothers Day

Happy Mother's day to all of you Moms out there. Take the day off and enjoy.

My Mom did such a good job I woke up this morning and realized if I was any better, I'd be twins!!!

The VA 2

First of all this Pic will never leave my blog.  rOBIN pAUL you think it's funny to make fun of Vets committing suicide? Well I hope you think this is funny too.

Fraud, waste, and abuse.  That's not only what's a matter with the VA but government in general.  Just in the last several weeks, we have had this chick doing her stunts.  We have another VA director that has historically taken multiple days off work.  And he still gets paid.  He gets paid at the tune of 180K per year (ish, I have no ideal what his bonuses are).   Dude gets arrested in FL with OC's that he doesn't have a script for (probably from the hospital, but they aren't saying).  Still gets paid.  But my bitch is this.

If you have read my other VA post you know that I have cancelled my VA appointments.  I have cancelled them over the phone but I still get calls asking why I wasn't there.  Not only have I cancelled the appointment but I have cancelled them several times.  So I get this phone call asking me why I missed and of course I say I cancelled with your automated system.  The response was and I quote, "not everybody has access to that system".  ?????  Really, then why the FUCK have it?  Why give me the ability to cancel an appointment if the guy on the other side can't see it?  I don't know, maybe I'm just stupid.  However, it doesn't end there.  So I get a letter in the mail stating that I have missed another appointment.  I call the VA and said that I have cancelled those appointments and the woman that I talked to said (and I quote, not everybody has access to that system) Again I'm like WTF???  This chick that I am now speaking to says, "that's correct, not everybody can see it".

That's not the whole problem.  People I have had as many as four phone calls reminding of a Doc's appt., now times that by up to six a week.  Now times that by 600,000 Vets that the Louisville VAMC "takes" care of.  Then multiply that by all the VA hospitals and clinics in the US.

Just saying...

The Army

This is what is wrong with the Army now days.  I enlisted in 1989 and was active until 1992.  Went back in, in '05 and was at Ft. Knox until '09.  Big, Big difference in Soldiers attitude and discipline.  No, I'm not bitching about these guys doing yoga.

I'm bitching about their uniforms.  Some have shorts, some have pants.  Some have head gear, others do not.  Some have PT Belts, others not so much.  Long sleeves/short sleeves.  PT Belts around the waist, PT Belts diagonally across the chest.  Absolutely no uniformity.

But this is just a symptom.  When I first got to Knox in '05, I told myself, "this ain't no military post".  I mean on post housing was trashed.  Children's toys all over the yards, trash cans on the street three days after pick up.  Grass not being cut, I mean a Freakin Post full of Privates and open parade fields and park areas not being cut.

People, I love the Army, always have, always will.  I'll always be a Soldier but we gotta get back to discipline.  Back to the basics.

Part Of My VA Story

Again, sorry for the little guy buy if she doesn't care
about my family, I don't care about hers
 

Here is my VA story, not so short and not so simple.  I know it's starts with the Army but truth be known, Soldier didn't go to the Doc (at least not back when I was raised in the Army) unless he was dead.  Unless of course he wanted to be belittled or get some crap detail.  Yes, I sad crap because I would like this to go viral and it needs to be clean.  So to start, why does this woman still have a job?  She just took a plea deal from the Indiana State Attorney General for a 90 day suspension of her social workers license.  I didn't read anywhere that she is suspended without pay (like that would be good enough anyway) because you know the UNION is not going to allow that.  But that is not my point with this post.  I just want to tell my story.  However, she/they are part of the problem and I wanted to bring it up.  Enough said.

I started complaining about my legs in 07 (I enlisted in '89)  but one can't blame everything on the Army, I love the Army. I always have, I always will.  Now, between '92 and '05 I have had a couple of breaks in service and in '07 I had or thought that I had (not so sure now) some really bad prostate problems at the time.  I mean the hole time my legs were going numb and it felt like somebody was in side of me cutting their way though that spot between my Johnson and you know what.  I was always told, what do you want fixed. Immediately  my response was, I want this knife to stop cutting me!!!  Then it comes to me being in the shower one morning (you know, those 40 seconds as a Drill that you get before you go to work) and I there was a lump.  That scared me.  I went in, talked to the Boss and said hey gotta go to the Doc.  Doc said yep, you gotta tumor and its gotta come out.  I was like OK, so what's the next step?  When's the biopsy?  His words, "Oh, no biopsy, testicular cancer moves to quick, we just cut them out".  True story.  I said no, they did a second ultrasound and decided not to, I still have them both incase you are wondering.

Legs still Jacked up by the way, no one wants to listen.  I'm mid way into '09 and I'll be honest I was off active duty doing nothing but looking for work and fell asleep on my couch with my legs on the coffee table and man, I got up and they just hurt.  I mean like I just did a 20 mile road march and yes, I do know what 20 miles humping 100 pounds is.  Next night in the bed but same thing.  Third night, I could not move my legs, AT ALL.  Thankfully my bathroom was right off the bedroom because I had to roll myself off the bed and drag myself to the toilet, then pick myself up.  All of my battle buddies were gone by then and couldn't call my ex, she'd just laugh.  It took about three days for me to get my legs under me in order to drive myself to Louisville VA.  To proud to call for help, as long as I could drag myself.  My first time at the VA, I think it took me about two hours to get from BFE parking to the ER.  The good Doc examines me and sends me home with a script.  Needless to say, all of those pills went down the toilet.  Yes people, I'm sorry but I tried one and I just can't do pills.  However, they do send me home with an appt. for an EMG.

So I get to the EMG and nothing, they don't find anything wrong.  OK, no big deal it's just in my mind and they are "getting" better just not full functioning.  Yeah, whatever.  By this time, I'm back in the USAR (just one, one of the reasons why I hate the Guard/Reserves) my 1SG tells me no problem, if we need to come get you, we will.  Not gonna dime him out, but if I need to I will.  We're talking about two hours one way.  In the same time frame they gave me not one but two flu shots and wanted me to do a PT Test the next day.  I said OK, I did 11 and 11 and had myself a nice 2 mile walk.  Since then.....  They busted me from Staff to a Pvt but that's neither here nor there.  Back in '06 I broke my wrist and right pinky in Combatives class.  I hate Army medicine so bad it took me three weeks to go the doctor and then only when it got to the point where I couldn't open a door.  They stick me in a "munster" cast and send me home with the 800mg of IB.  The cast immediately came off (damn that thing hurt) and after three weeks of showing up at OT doing stupid exercises I said, "yep, all healed, all's good to go".  I bring this up only because the Army diagnosed me with Carpel Tunnel Syndrome and as of 2014 the VA says, nope, no CTS found.  BTW, the pinky was never set and the bottom joint is as big as the knuckle and constantly locks up.

So the pain is getting so bad, both physical and mental.  I can't even sleep with my wife without the beating her down during the night due to the nightmares.  Constant fighting in my sleep, waking every hour or two with night sweats/night terrors.  Between '09 and '12 I can't hold a job.  Nothing but a temp job here and a temp job there.  I'm self medicating with alcohol to kill the pain when I get off work.  I'm drinking when I'm not at work so I can sleep without nightmares.  I "had a dream" that I went into work one morning and hit a car in the parking lot.  I never got out of the car, just put it in gear and went home.  When I "woke up" I looked at my wife and said take me to the VA, I need to get cleaned up.  She packed my toiletries and a couple days of clothes in a 1989 model Ft. Sill "Red Leg" duffel bag and off we went.  After six hours of sitting in the ER waiting room they take me back to triage and send me home with an appointment for the Ft. Knox VA clinic two weeks later.  I went home, depressed and needless to say, I got drunk.  I didn't make that appointment, my health continued to fail and I have not worked at all since early 2012.  In March of 2014 I had a seizure.

This was my first and only "witnessed" seizure.  I don't know if I have had any before or after.  I say witnessed because my wife can spend 13 to 15 hours a day away from home do to work.  If she sleeps 7 to 8 hours a day then we have very little time to spend together on her work days.  Living alone, sometimes I really don't know.  I do know that I have missed time.  I do know that I have "woken up" in a different room.  It's very scary and hard to explain.  ALL 100% SOLBER.  I do know that since the seizure I have had multiple issues addressed by the VA.  I say addressed because I have an open VA disability claim and the doctors that I see will not or can not give a diagnoses.  In late March of 2014 I started working on a disability claim for the SSA and the VA.  Both of which I've had to do by myself and with the help of my wife.

SSA.  My wife drove me down to the SSA office in Elizabethtown, KY to fill out an application.  We get down there and the wait wasn't to bad, only about 45 minutes or so.  However, when we do get a chance to speak to somebody, they say we needed X, Y, and Z.  Of which, we did not have and we needed to get it, but he suggested that we might want to do a phone interview as opposed to bringing everything down there with us.  I get a letter in the mail. stating time when the call would take place and Jo (my wife) ensures that she will be present for the call.  She does most of the talking.  Together we get the forms filled out.  A month later I get another letter stating that they need X.  Two months later I get a letter stating that they need Y, and so on.  Eventually, they denied benefits partially do because they made a decision on the fact that they don't have proper Army/VA records and the fact that they make a diagnoses on the basis that they can't get records for the eye doc that the VA sent me to.  Not that it matters, but denied again and now I have an attorney.

VA.  I should have started my claim in '92 but to be frank, I thought it was all BS and anybody that filed a claim of disability (without missing a limb, etc...) was full of nonsense.  I started mine after the seizure.  Understand that my last year of active duty, I worked with these people (VA reps) on a weekly sometimes daily basis.  I was lucky enough to be the NCOIC of the Ft. Knox a RSRP site and seen the VA reps that often.  Finally after the inability to work, I try to file a claim with the VA rep at Knox.  I was told can't help you.  Come see me when you have all of your med records, hard copy only, nothing digital.  I, of course, said who could expect anything less in this day and age of a paperless Army and a paperless government, right?  The wife and I go to IACH at Knox and file a request for med records.  They said about six months.  I had my those records in about thirty days.  She and I then go to VAMC in Louisville, KY to request records....  I was told 30 to 60 days.  Sixty days come and go.  I then show up at the records request office at the LVAMC and request the same records, at that point I was told, "she has been out and they are still on her desk", OUT, REALLY, FOR HOW LONG?????  But I filled out another request.  Long story short a total of three request I finally get my records.  That are incomplete, just so that you know.  Then I call the DAV.  In turn, they turn me onto the local DAV rep in E-Town.  His words, "Throw it away, I've been doing this job for twelve years, I've helped over a thousand Vets and their families, I know what's going to go though and what's not.  You might as well as put that in the trash".  At that point I decided to do it on my own, on the web.  Probably not a good ideal, because I just had no clue what I was doing.  Since then I have received three letters stating that my claim is important to them and it will be taken in the order in which it was received, lol.  And since then I have read one article where a woman's claim was finalized after 24 years and another after 17 years....   And since then.

The VA has told me I have degenerative bone disease, (as you were, the records state that I have) I need neurosurgery on my cervical and lumbar spine.  There are three to four vertebra that are limiting or have closed off SPF between my C-4&6 and L3-&7.  All due to alcohol.  They have also acknowledged bone lesions.  Due to alcohol.  I had to have a bone biopsy on my left pelvic bone.  If what they did to me then wasn't arcane enough wait to you hear about what they did to my eyes!  After sticking me in an out of this machine again and again (drilling), the main guy tells the other guy AND SAYS," we're just not getting it".  The other guy states, "well, look he's moving his leg", then they ask me if I can feel it??????????  Needless to say I said of course.  After talking to the doc ole boy reached up grabbed my IV and that was the last thing I remember until it was all over with.  Thankfully, soon after, my wife was at my bedside and took me home.  A couple of weeks later I meet with my Primary Care Physician (PCP).  My PCP (whom I LOVE) wasn't sure about what was going on so she suggested some more test.  I did the test and NP.  She gave me another referral to neurosurgery.  In the mean time I have this going on with my eyes and my mind.

I'll start with the eyes because it's the easiest.  I have never had a "real" eye exam my entire life.  I could pass my Army exams with 20/20 and had no problem.  But, by the time I got off active duty in '09 I could tell that we they were getting a little weak, not much but weak.  After the seizure I cold not see a thing.  I could see what I was seeing but my brain couldn't process it quick enough to make sense.  I would/still have to slow everything down so I can function.  I think I can read the eye chart and soon there after I can.  It's just a matter of what day and how long it takes me.   But when I had my first real "eye exam" it wasn't with the VA.  It was with Dr. Biszer's, a VA off site referral.  Yea, I don't mind diming you're a$$ out.  Dr. Biszers in Elizabethtown, KY told my wife, "wait till his glasses get here, he and sees what you look like, he may not be married anymore", (yep, that's what you got working for you).  I didn't hear, b/c if I did we'd be one less eye doc in the world.  At which point I only had been making up to six appointments a week to the VA.  Jo would always walk up to the eye clinic and ask if there was anyway I could get in any early.  You see, I can not see anymore and I definitely can not see colors and brightness kills me.  Without sunglasses, count me out, just can't open my eyes.  After three sets of glasses from the VA I still can't see.  I asked for transition lenses and got them but when I received them they did not work, when I took them back to the little "store" inside the VA hospital for glasses, I was told, "well, they don't work behind glass".  I asked, "how am I suppose to see how to drive"?  The response was, they don't work behind glass.  Now all that said, let me tell you about my eye exams.  Because to be honest with you, I don't have enough experience in the matter.  I have always had a good exam, never had a problem with my eyes.  At least when I did my Dr. Bizsers exam they did the gluclomo test and they just shot air into my eyes.  Unexpectedly, but that's all they did.  Six months later when I got to the VA they stuck this metal probe into my eyes.  Both of them!!!

They literally put drops in your eyes, take this metal probe, expect you to look at it while they poke you, No Stuff.  The eye "doc", who was doing this to me said you can't feel it, just hold still!!  I looked at the little college Co-ed who was doing this to me and said, "WTF, you have contacts, have you ever had this done to you"???  Her reply was no!  Maybe I should before I except you to do it?  You think, was my reply!  Last time I went to the eye clinic at LVAMC was in Feb of this year.  Again they poked my eye so bad that eye (no pun intended) could not see.  The day after my eye was watering so bad still could not see.  I "looked" at my wife and said no more.  You have to understand that the last person that my wife and I talked to was an optomolidgist and not an optometrist.  This guy looked right at me and said, "Well, you're not driving? You can't drive, I mean legally you can drive but morally you can't". EXACT WORDS!!!  The VA doc's can say stuff like this because they don't won't any responsibility.  You see, I have an open VA claim and they can not make a definitive diagnose.  Which I understand.  Same guy looked at me and said, "You're just an alcoholic, right?".  But what you need is a Nuero optomologist.  Even told me the best Nuero optomologist in the nation is from Lebanon Junction, KY.  Which is where I live now, just out side of Knox.

But you see people, I'm not a medical doctor, but just maybe, I mean just maybe, that there's something to be said about Gulf War Syndrome!  I mean, I can't even ask the person (that was) considered my best friend, closer to me than my brother, to admit that we took those pills.  We took "NAP" pills. Nerve Agent Pills, we did this because it was suppose to build our "tolerance" against nerve agent, the same thing SH was going to throw at us.  They lined us up, made us take them.  To ensured we did not cheek them, then when it was all said and done counted the ones we turned in...  They came in little foil backs, just like you could buy sutifedde, white front.  They read NAP Pills, Nerve Agent Pills.  We did this all the while burning human faciese and urine with diesel and Mo gas for months prior and then made our way back though the oil fields.

This is a difficult decision for me.  My plan was never to admit this to anyone but maybe I'm being selfish, and if it was then God please forgive me.  If that's the only thing He has to forgive me for than I am a lucky man.  For those of you that know me, for those of you that don't know me, you better never let me hear a word of this come out of your mouth.  If I hear one word of it, it'll be two in the chest one in the head day,,,,,  Just Saying!!!

I peed the bed.  I peed the bed every night from the minute they gave those pills us until the night that we moved forward. We were already on/at/in the boarder so it was not fear.  Or maybe it was, either way we were shooting.  I wasn't afraid of killing someone and I wasn't afraid of dieing.  I was afraid of someone would learned that I had peed "the bed" my sleeping bag.  My bag which laid on the ground.  My bag that laid on the ground and I was so very thank that the rainy season had ended (even though it was frezzing cold) that I could grab some (dry) sand, rub it in the bag pour it out and do it again before I had to go to OP.  I was glad that we had moved and had no time for bags, we had a poncho and poncho liners on the ground.  I did that until we got back down south.  It wasn't fear fear my friends, I'm not afraid of anything walking on God's Green Earth.  I'll take on any man walking; however, if you throw in some heights or a bee, you'll see me squeal like a 12 year old school girl.

Last summer I crashed on the couch for a bit, was fighting in my sleep and ended up kicking the coffee table so hard I thought I broke my foot.  It took two months for the mark to go away.  Just the other day, I was napping on the couch and had another nightmare.  Jo, was on the loveseat.  I woke up and she said, "I'm surprised you didn't break your hand".  Appearently, I had hit the table, it hurt, but would never admit to it.  I was like, yea, NP.  Constate nightmares, either falling/jumping out of a plane or war.  Doesn't have to be over there.  I can have them about Veitnam, never been there.  But falling, always.  Sad thing is, my Mother, God rest her soul.  I was just a kid we were living in Fayetteville, NC.  Seeing those muroon berets, man I just wanted one.  My Mother would say, "David, there's only two things fall from the sky and that's bird shit and fools. You are not either one of them!".   Sometimes, don't you wish you would have listen to your mother?  BTW, all due to alcohol.

So there I am last summer sleeping on the couch.  I wake up and my left chest is sore.  NP, right?  I fight all the time in my sleep and I just figure I hit myself (my wife beats me, please help).  I don't know maybe I fell asleep on the remote, you know anything.  Couple of days latter, still sore and I'm in the shower.  I'm soaping up and feel a knot on my left nipple.  I call the wife and she fells it  Yep, there's a knot.  So, I "secure message" the my health care team.  I one thing I can say good about the VA is this guy ALWAYS gets back to me.  But my message went something like, hey gotta be in there on Thursday can I stop by and have one of the nurses give me a breast exam?  I have touch many of boobies (I love boobies) but really I have no ideal what I'm doing, I don't know if this is something I should be worried about or not.  Instead of e-mailing me back, this guy calls me and says nope the Doc want to see you.  But listen, she is squzzing you in and doesn't have a lot of time so just that.  Let her check out and be done.  I'm like NP, I'm there anyway.  You have to understand that I'm poor and broke.  Haven't worked in a very long time but I still don't want to waste the VA's resources, I could have been just fine with a nurse checking me out.  The Doc comes in, does an exam and agrees there is a lump.  She give me a referral to get a mammogram.  That comes back as nothing but gynoplascimia.  Due to alcohol.  I mean I just gained thirty pounds in two months sitting on my butt.  Where is the weight going to go?  My tummy, my butt, and yes my boobies.  At my peak I was 168 pounds and then went to 119.  At that point I was back up to a buck fifty and had nothing to do with alcohol. 

I have problems speaking, I know what I want to say just can't get it out.  I can talk to my wife just fine.  I can talk to my therapist or so I think.  I have memory issues, both long term and short term.  I can not spell, count, or throw.  I walk with a cane.  All due to alcohol.  I was a Drill Sergeant in the US Army and could do all these things.  Very well, I might add.  I wouldn't call myself Einstein but I would like to call myself a little bit smarter than the average bear, before the seizure.  I once ran twenty miles because my Section Chief (Go Staff Trott) told me I couldn't.  I have five rolls of Ribbons on my Uniform along with two sets of Wings and a  DS Badge.   None of that means anything to me any more.  What I want, what I would like is someone to tell me why I can not walk with out a cane.  Why I can not see. Why I can not count, etc..  I would like someone to tell me why I cannot speak without thinking about what I'm going to say three days in advance.  What I want is the ability to get up and go to the latrine without thinking about left right, left right.

Besides all of the physical issues that I have (Due to alcohol) we come to the mental health of the VA.  The first person I meet outside of the hospital was a VA mental health social worker.  Eventually I realized that I could get on line and get my records (or at least some of them).  Well, this chick went on and on about how I praised her when it came to her "turning me on" to my shrink.  When I meet the good doctor all was fine.  Then I meet another VA head shrinker.  His words to me were, "We only have thirty minutes, what do you need from me?"............  Enough said on that?  I went along time without alcohol and I'm fine with that.  The gabapentin kills the pain spikes and I can live.  I can not sleep, at least not without nightmares but that's fine.  After 20+ years I guess one gets use to it.  I did recently talked to my main head shrinker on the phone.  My wife had a question for me and I didn't really know how to respond so I called my shrink and left a message for her.  She called me back on a late Friday afternoon, and her words to me were, " Call me back on Monday, you're drunk".  I mean really, she was my last hope.  Since then I cancelled all of my VA appointments.  I just can't deal with it anymore.  I loved my therapist, I really did.  She was a ray of hope for me, but I'm so tired of people telling me it's due to alcohol..........

I cancelled all my remaining VA appointments, including the surgeries.  One would think I could type up a quick paragraph and post it.  Truth be known it takes a good day to type one out.  Mainly because of my mental status but also my wrist.  I just can't sit and type, they lock up on me.  They hurt if I move them, they hurt if I don't. Due to Alcohol!!  I have a lot more to say but it took me two weeks to write this, if I continue then it'll be another seven months.